Dying To Be Me

One of my clients loaned me a book she bought called, "Dying To Be Me" by Anita Moorjani.  It is the most amazing book - one that I would highly recommend to anyone who is looking for guidance or trying to make more sense of their journey.

It is written by a woman (Anita) who had cancer.  The cancer ravaged her body for four years and after her body had withered away to almost nothing and her organs were shutting down, she slipped into a coma. It was then that she had a NDE (near death experience) and when she came back and came out of her coma, she completely healed from the cancer.  Her story has received attention from all over the world; medical professionals who wanted to understand how the "impossible" could have occurred and spiritual leaders who wanted to understand all that she learned on "the other side."

She brought back many messages from the other side, such as: We are all one, We are love at our core, We are magnificent, etc.  She learned that all judgement, hatred, jealousy and fear stem from people not realizing their true greatness, that lacking awareness of our perfection keeps us feeling small and insignificant and therefore, that's what we create for ourselves.

As I read her words, I could feel the "Truth" in them . . . I have always believed that we know how magnificent we are when we first come into this world and then over time, our beliefs erode and are replaced by new beliefs . . . and unfortunately, most of our new beliefs don't support the notion that we are divine, magnificent beings.  I believe that part of our journey here is about reconnecting with what we knew when we were born . . . tapping into that knowledge and finding our gifts, so that we can be the radiant beings we were meant to be.

She said that she learned that we are one with the universe and that our purpose is to be our magnificent selves.  She also learned that the external world truly is only a reflection of what is inside us, so she now lives her life from joy instead of fear.

She realized that before her NDE, everything she did was to avoid pain or to please other people.  She says, "I was caught up in doing, pursuing, searching and achieving and I was the last person I ever took into consideration.  My life was driven by fear - fear of displeasing others, of failing, of being selfish and or not being good enough  In my own head, I always fell short."  That part caught my eye because I know how many of us struggle with those very fears and I could see myself in that description for most of the first 35 years of my life.

She also said, "The external world mirrors what we feel about ourselves.  By letting go of any negative self-judgment, we allow our world to transform, and as it does so, we'll be able to feel greater and greater trust.  The more we're able to trust, the more we're able to let go of trying to control the outcome.  When we try to move with this flow, rather than adhere dogmatically to the doctrines of others or the beliefs we once had that no longer serve us, we more accurately reflect who and what we truly are."

It confirmed for me the importance of really loving and honoring ourselves.  When we truly love ourselves unconditionally and feel free to be ourselves fearlessly, anything is possible . . . it is from that space that I believe we are supposed to live.  That concept is a big part of the work I do with my clients, as well as the basis of the work I have done with myself.

And as someone who used to believe that our existence here was "hell" and we had to get through this experience to get to "heaven" . . . I can now say that I am finally understanding more about how to experience "heaven on earth."  If you feel moved to do so, pick up a copy of Anita's book.  Chances are, it will resonate with you in much the same way that it resonated with me.